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If you're still reading, I could REALLY use your help for a medical strain(s)..that would be best for me.

I have several conditions and would need more than the one does all strain that I'm using at the moment,

1) Gatroparesis. This would be for a) bad nausea and b) EXTREME PAIN that not even fent patches can touch. Look up gastroparesis pain and you will understand if you think I'm being a puss about my pain. This pain is occasional )2x per week or so) and the nausea is constant but I got used to it. I would need treatment for when it gets really bad 2-3x per week on average.

2) Chronic pain syndrome/fibromyalgia: It's constant and about a 7/10 without any meds. It can get worse some days...many things like weather and anxiety seem to affect it.

The issues: I have SEVERE panic disorder and GAD. Medical marijuana can make me panic or it can relax me...it depends on the day, the type of pain, how I'm feeling and how the gods of fate will decide ... The other issue is my EXTREME chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I do mean EXTREME. I can easily sleep 3 days in a row. I usually sleep 12 hours, get up, have a snack/drink/bio and feed the cats then head back to bed. So taking something that will make me sleep even more is scary. Taking something that will get me ''hyper'' is scary because that could start my panic. I also have insomnia at times. It's actually a common part of CFS but most people don't know it. You're tired and you want to sleep but you can't. Your mind is going crazy, thinking about anything and everything. The panic builds up as time passes without sleep (lack of sleep build panic).

I am not working anymore. I'm only 30. All of this fucked up my life pretty badly all at once. I take a ton of pill but I have some success with generic health Canada MM....I think that with a few different strains directed specifically at my issues, I could have more success.

The goal is to cut down on benzos and opioids..

Thank you in advance if you have any suggestions other than offing myself. I think about that every day but I know pain and I don't want to cause pain to the few people who stayed around and still love me...So I endure. No pity btw. I don't want any of that. I do want to hopefully get a bit of a better quality of life. If any doctors or MM experts read this, I'm all ears. I saw a ton of doctors and so far, the solution has been to control my pain/anxiety/depression/gastroparesis-slow digestion with pills. It's helped some-made some worse.

It's actually cheaper. The expensive stuff at a grocery store is the meat. Vegan food is fruits and vegies and nuts and....All things that you likely ate before. The soy mock stuff is more expensive but not as expensive as meat still. So it's really a myth that it's expensive. If you're paying more, you may need to talk with other vegans and see where you're going wrong because everyone that I know who gives up meat saves money. What<s expensive at a restaurant? The steak or the salad?

Can anyone explain this humane killing to me? I mean in this case, it's to kill an animal to eat it. We know that we do not need them to survive. So really, we're killing an animal for a person who doesn't care that an animal dies because they want to eat them.

I understand euthanasia. It's killing for a humane cause: to end pain and suffering. There is no gain from it except for the animal who will stop suffering and I'm including the human animal in this too.

When we're killing because of greed/lack of care/wanting what we want (because that the truth about meat), we're ending a creature's life. We have to rape these creatures often so they will become pregnant and give us more babies to kill. And we rape some of them too in order to get more.....And so goes the cycle.

So really, we're creating creatures just so we can kill them. And by doing so, we're utilizing so much land and we're killing other humans by starving them to death.

So someone, please explain to me how a killing can be humane. And if it's so humane, then why do we only do it to animals. I mean, we could eat human meat. Start raping women, getting them pregnant, eat the babies.

Humane killing doesn't exist. It's a concept that we have to make ourselves feel better. To pacify our guilt. ''Oh this animal died fast. Humane!''. But it was just killed. It's life was terminated so that you could eat it's flesh when you don't need to in order to survive.

I think we need to call it: A killing where the death happens quickly in order to minimize the suffering time. Because I don't think that any killing is humane.

Hi there. First of all, props to you! I'm disabled and it's not always easy for us out there but you really seem like a go getter! Thank you for giving all disabled people more visibility. I know that it's not just about that. I followed Stella and I shared a lot of her views on ''being a crip'' as she said so lovingly. I'm wondering if the two of you ever met btw?