Elubious

While not as serious I've got some chronic health conditions as well that don't happen to be treatable. How do you keep hoping? Do you even keep hoping? How do you stay strong enough to keep trying to live life?

As fucked up as it sounds in a way it's comforting that someone else feels that way. I'm especially sick of the "It gets better" or the "its for a reason" lines. There is literally no treatment that has had any effect save narcotics after one of said surgeries.

I'm probably going to die of a heart attack due to some family stuff and my inability to exercise. I've had three or four major surgeries but none of them have been related to my condition. I don't know why I'm still alive or why I care about how others feel. It's not that I want to die, more of that living just hurts too much.